SAY I'M A LEOPARD.

Blouse: Old Navy// Skirt: LOFT// Coat: Anthropologie

You know what's fun? Printed shit. LOFT is great for business cas-printed shit.

Thx 4 scrollin.

There are reasons you take photos off Facebook. I remember when boyfriends and I would break up and I'd delete their existence from my life; it was a healing mechanism, you know? like burning love letters or something. Soon, I'd get past it and realize I was left with The Lost Years. Not that Facebook is the only place photos can be stored, but in reality, I store a lot of memories on there, mostly because it doesn't bog down my computer.

There are reasons you keep them too; memories, you look great in said photos (ha), and the fact you want to remember that part of your life, because maybe, even though you hate to admit it, it wasn't so bad.

I was the -Keeper of the Ex Photos- during my last two break ups, they, however, were the deleters (let me tell you how mad I got about that one). I kept my ex boyfriends photos around because I knew one day i'd want to look back, i'd want to have memories of a love I enjoyed oh, so long ago. I keep these exes in a special place, because I'm no longer friends with them... no longer friends to the point... we don't speak. At all. This means these photos are all I have, the only memories, the only things that keep these people real, really.

I had this moment, scrolling through old photos on Facebook, where I hit the year! 2010. This was the last year of a specific ex-boyfriend, as I scrolled, I hit 2009, 2008... great years, full of hand holding photos and stupid faces, 2007, a stupid photo of both of us wearing the biggest shades available to man. I could go on. Memories. Good ones. Ugh, where was the photos of the time I cried, because... etc.

It's hard sometimes; never unbearable anymore. Don't get me wrong, my ex and I are over, we've been over for a couple of years now, I am past the hurt and past the crying. I don't mention him in conversations, nor do I think of him on Sundays when I'm laying in bed. I'm in a great place with my "Ex Recovery." Really- I have fully recovered... but, that doesn't make memories go away, it doesn't keep me from scrolling.

But see... then there's 2011, and 2012. That's another thing.... the good things. The times when you scroll and watch yourself make friends, meet people, love other people, and find a new place in life. I'm over my ex, I'm glad he exists, and I do wish the best for him; I also wish the best for myself, and THAT's what I do have control of; not him, not his happiness, or his well being... mine, and me? I'm happy, I am at a place where I can totally love someone again, be happy, get married(!?) one day and love that person as much as I loved the ex, plus more. I remember when saying I was "over" it was hard. I never wanted to say it out loud, actually. Then there was the moment I forgave him, then there was the moment I felt whole without anyone, then there was the moment laying next to a man that was not my ex and realizing "I could do this."

I don't know that looking before year 2011 will ever be a good idea, but I'm glad I didn't lose those years, I was happy, and... something that's even better? I'm happy now too.

All the best-
Amber

Outfit.

Cardi & Hair flowers: Aerie// Shirt: LOFT// Skirt: H&M// Flats: Target

Picked up my first 3 months of free Birth Control. I walked out of the pharmacy feeling like I stole something, It was great.

Pink Glasses. Totally normal.

Sweater: Aerie// Pants: Gap// Flats: Gap

Can you see dem specz? Either way those will be around more often, so you will see them. I like them as far as glasses go, I hate pink in most cases (trying to warm up to the color), but I got these last year and don't hate them. I got them after my second visit to the eye doctor and we decided on a light Rx due to me getting severe headaches after long hours staring at the computer (who knew), then never reallllllly wore them. Guess what! If these glasses will fix those headaches, I guess we'll get together more often, like today. SO glasses folkz, I'm in d'club now, what's up with those people who don't wear glasses? Weird. They just don't get it/us, yanno? It's a glasses person thing. YANNO.

Also, there was much hair cut to be had this weekend, I have so many feels about haircuts. I literally turn into a puddle when someone touches me, so when it's one to two hours of head touching... seriously you can't make me any happier.

Black and blue, and orange and black, and tree.

Shirt: Target// Cardi: Aerie// Skirt: Old Navy// Tights: AE

+ Finally bought ski pants, gloves, and some neck thing for skiing in mid-March
- Haven't painted my nails in a week
+ Haven't had candy/cookies since Lent started
+ Haven't spent my whole tax return yet
there's a few more +'s i'm really wanting to talk about, but for many reasons can't yet. Soon. Hopefully.

"Autumn Sweater" by Yo La Tengo

Dress: F21// Sweater: Old Navy// Slingbacks: Marc by Marc Jacobs

 So this one time I went to Savannah, GA & Tybee Island on a whim:

    

It was the weekend my friend, Sarah (Eli's mom!) found out she was pregnant. Her family and I were some of the only people who knew, then we told Joe moments after the above picture was taken (this is how he gets comfortable in hotels, btw). Then Savannah began! We ate and drank amazing things, took tours of the city, went to the beach and we shopped, we shopped so much. There was a Marc by Marc Jacobs store and glitter shoes were all I really wanted in life. They had them. I bought them. I wear them. 

And that's the story of my shoes. Cool story, right? Sorry you had to sit through that. Here's some more Savannah pictures:

Weekend life [mostly]according to iPhone

1&2) Remember that baby I welcomed Friday?! 

3) Saturday was a good hair day

4) Photo taken by GlassJarPhotography

5-8) Hot wings with babez

9) Milly likes to be in the way

10) Cousin Rachel! Sweet baby girl.

11) Milly in cuddle mode

12 & 13) Rachel and  (happy!!) Trace! He just started smiling, and I was taking far too many pictures.

14 & 15) ASOS & H&M// Need & need now.