It's Bullshit... and Love.

Weekend in Nashville! I fell so hard Denver I had almost forgotten that/why I loved Nashville so much. It's so hard being in love with two cities, but Nashville has such a deep place in my heart, maybe it's because I have this group of girls who all vow we will be living there (together) in five years. Anyways, what a great weekend, despite the rain. We celebrated Kacy's Graduation and Cinco De Mayo all weekend... so it was 100% drinks, food, and getting a chance to hang out with my girlfriends (and that cute boy up there: Kacy's Fiance).

There's so much that's about to change with my group of girlfriends. We've been pretty much inseparable for two years and in the next year we will all be living in different places, scattered throughout the world, yes... world. I am trying so hard to get in my time and really be there, talk to them, and just be aware of our friendship. I love our relationship so much, each of my girlfriends is such a different person, but somehow it makes us so much more compatible. We've all become great friends, we know each others moms, we travel together, have seen each other use the bathroom too many times, pick each other up when we've done something stupid/end up somewhere stupid, and eat off each others plates.

I vow this... to always love these girls, no matter how far away they are, because that's what you do... you love people through the shit, distance, and dumb choices, even when it's hard. That's what a relationship is, it's bullshit, and love.

Happy Easter!

I want to get a little real right now, because i'm overwhelmed with emotion this morning after Easter Service. I tuned in to my old church via Crosspoint.tv (online streaming) and sometimes I forget the church that made church a positive message for me.

Seems silly, right? Church should always be a positive message, but it's just not. Maybe I'm "wrong" in this feeling, maybe I should step into all churches and feel Jesus everytime, but sometimes I step into a church and couldn't feel farther from God.

Now, I'm not a uber religious person and in most cases people would probably say i'm not religious at all, but little secret... I love Jesus and my home church and being surrounded by that feeling of love [every Sunday]. I don't make the best choices, right choices, most Jesus-centered choices enough... but that's okay. I fall off more times than not, but either way I am loved and that is what I want out of a church, a community of people who know why I'm there and that it might not always be the same story and that I could have majorly messed up this week, but that doesn't mean I am loved less.

I believe in my faith, the hope I have, the prayers I pray, the life I live/love... and I love that. I love this life, this stupid, confusing, lovely life I have been given and to feel like I do when I am at Crosspoint is a feeling you don't always feel in certain lights. Crosspoint makes me feel warm, loved, and just... normal.

on the weekend-go

Nashville was great. Did minimal shopping (yes, still budgeting), ate bar food, ate housewarming party food, played drinking games. Always a great time in Nashville, you all know this!     

In other news, I've been wearing too much legging as pant, not washing my hair, or doing it for that matter. I'm lucky to have my job for a few reasons, one being my lack of motivation to really wear real clothes. Having a job provides that extra boost on most days. Also I regret not buying that coffee mug; I've honestly never regretted something so much. 

Monday, no work, all shop.

Scarf: H&M// Cardigan & Tank: AE// Jeans: F21// Leather Jacket: F21// Rainboots: JCrew

Took a personal day Monday! Went to Nashville Sunday night with Lorna (outtake above), we played in East Nashville (first time for Lorna), ate tons of food, and shopped til we could not shop anymore. Basically... success. 

Weekend in picture.

Friday! Hockey game.

Lorna searching for food in the back of the arena.

Saturday night Ashley and I went to Nashville to watch yet another hockey game (if you hadn't guessed Ashleys boyfriend is a hockey player, which is why I spent all weekend being hockey-fied)

Caught on camera.

Sunday was for brunch and park time with Lorna, which is how my last few have been spent. 

Always a good Sunday, which makes for a good Sunday nap.

I am so excited about fall.

I really enjoy cool mornings and when the sun is shines, but doesn't burn my skin. I like boots and a good pumpkin ale. I remember driving through Tennessee a lot in the fall. Alabama is great, but I find a portion of my heart always lingering in Tennessee. I have met such great people in Tennessee and the fall colors seem to be brighter in Tennessee, and the air crisper. I have such fond memories of that state and I visit less and less, until lately. Lately, I am getting my fix of the Tennessee air, when I'm there I feel at home, I know the roads, the place that makes the best egg sandwich, the church that makes me feel most welcome, and the location of the best record store. I love my home town, do NOT get me wrong, I am so lucky to have been brought up in such a great place and surrounded by only the best people ever, but I can't say my itch to visit Tennessee is ever gone.

Someone once told me to visit Maine in the fall, every fall I think about this(see above photo). Maine in the fall has become somewhat of an unforgettable lyric to me. I can't unthink it and every year I want to see it more. So my vow is to visit Maine in the fall before I turn 28; that gives me a good 3 years to get there, which gives me 3 falls to wish... maybe 2, whatever! Maybe I'll just go this fall.

Until then, I'll just continue to wear my boots and eat my egg sandwiches, but I won't take my drives through Tennessee for granted anymore. I'll stop and look at the trees and I'll drink my coffee outside, maybe I'll even buy a record player.

Weekend Update

Spent the weekend in Nashville with friends. Spontaneous weekend trips with my favorite lady friends to my favorite city is always something I look forward to. Basically a weekend full of coffee, brews, pup dance offs and sushi with bacon.